Mama, Saturday will be one year since you have been gone. I’m trying to go on every day but it’s so hard without you. When I needed someone to listen, to encourage me, or just pray with me, you were there. I have had so many sleepless nights since you have been gone. I remember when you were in Mobile Infirmary on Jan. 13, 2011 the day after your 84th birthday you told me you were going to sleep away. I told you I didn’t want you to do that because I love you and I’m going to miss you, and that I was going to be sad. You looked at me and said I don’t want you to be sad, because I am not going to be sad. Mama, I will never forget that, but I am sad. My heart aches every day for you because I love you so very much and miss you so very much. It seems like no matter what I do the hurt won’t go away.